attended an intellectual event today and it made me feel just how apathetic i have been.

anyhoo, the holidays are here. luck hasnt really been on my side recently. according to a friend, one way to improve this is to throw salt over my shoulders. not too sure how this works but desperate times call for desperate measures. but..i probably need a ton of salt.

i'm not bullshitting. just being my superstitious self.

my plan to exercise every night failed miserably after i accidentally tore/stretched my abdominal muscles. it still fucking hurts. just a sign that i should continue to gain weight. good job.